6 Days ago = CRAZINESS

Every day I think about blogging but just can't find the time. I am sure you understand. As of right now Dylan is throwing a huge temper tantrum and I needed to "ignore" it and what better way than to blog. Man this little guy of mine sure is getting fiesty as the days go by. So since last I posted a lot has gone down. Nothing bad, all good, just stressed.

Halloween was last Saturday, and we took Dylan trick or treating at the Countryside Mall. He loved it, although I am worried every trip to the mall from here on out will end in disappointment when he doesn't get candy at every store front. He was a little devil, and the BEST little devil I might add. Everyone that passed us had to stop and admire his cuteness :)




Let me tell you it wasn't easy to draw on a moving target as is my 19 month old son... BUT it did end up being easier than I thought it would be. He was a cutie pie and had a blast, as did daddy and I.

BoBo still pee's every where. He is untrainable. Is that even a word? Well it is now! Haha

I have started this darn web page that I agreed to design, and let me tell you it is easier said than done. I know HTML design, not CSS.... It is like learning Polish! Very difficult!

Right now we are watching a clip from the Lion King in Polish



It is neat to learn what they are saying this way. I used to watch this movie as a child so I feel like I have it memorized in English, so Polish should be understood based just on that.

I need to go before Dylan hurts himself. I will attempt to write more tonight.

Thanks for reading! Hope every one had a safe and fun Halloween <3

One of those days.

It's just one of them days,
When I wanna be all alone.
Its just one of them days,
When I gotta be all alone.
It's just one of them days,
Don't take it personal.
I just wanna be all alone,
and you think I treat you wrong.

I wanna take some time out to think things through.
I know it always feels like im doing you wrong but I'm so in love with you.
So understand that I'm only in love,
You're the only one I need.
So have no thought that i want to leave
And baby trust me please.

It's just one of those days that a girl goes through
When I'm angry inside,
Don't wanna take it out on you.
Just one of them things.
Don't take it personal.
I just wanna be all alone
And I you think I treat you wrong.
Don't take it personal
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby.
Don't take it personal.




So true. Good song Monica, you sang it right girl friend! haha
It's just been one of those kind of days for me. Everything has been going wrong today. Every tiny little thing that could happen has.

BD didn't go to work today... but he didn't stay home either. Odd. He didn't tell me he wasn't at work until I called him at 11:30am. Odd. Right? So I am not sure how to handle that situation. In my opinion he lied to me. I was trusting he was at work..... I am not sure how to think. So then I get upset about that. On top of yesterdays issue of pissing me off, now I am mad times twenty. He skipped work to go hang out with his brother, and play Tennis.... I have been begging to go play tennis with Rafal since we met. I will swear to that. So it's like this weekend isn't about our family its about his family. When you "marry" someone your NEW family takes priority. We should be a team. He should not be ditching work to hang out with his brother. He will be with him every day this weekend. We aren't going to see him REALLY until Sunday night.

I hate the thoughts I have.... Like "One day, when I am working and have money I will do this same stuff to him. Just take off in my car early in the morning and spend all day at the beach while he is stuck here with Dylan." or "Just wait until I have a job, and I am out of the house and meeting cool new people. Then when I get invited to Halloween parties and no one can babysit, you can be stuck with him... wondering what I am doing all night with out you." I hate that I am thinking like that. I am a grown woman, I shouldn't be thinking about getting back at him. I should be thinking of ways to grow from this, and better MYSELF. Instead I can't help but think about stooping to his level. I love Dylan too much to stick him with his father in such a rude manner. But seriously when do I get a break. Or more than that, when do I get that kind of attention. He thinks going to work every day is all the attention I need from him. He thinks that since he works "FOR ME" [thats what he always says] I shouldn't need any real attention from him. We went to see a movie two weeks ago, first time in... a year at least. His family lives here and can watch Dylan from time to time as well as my parents. But he never wants to waste money on us doing anything when we could stay home and ... weeee ... watch TV. Instead, he goes Kayaking with his brother, Golfing with his brother, Paint balling with his brother, they play Tennis and go to Halloween parties. What do Rafal and I do?

We..... wake up. He works. I take care of Dylan and the house. He comes home to cooked dinner, and then he watches TV or sits at the computer. Dylan gets a bath and goes to bed. Then we stare at the TV until he needs to fall asleep because he has work early. He says he wants to do all of this fun stuff, but obviously not with me.

I hope he gets home in time for this thing at the church tonight. He was supposed to be home at noon from work, then we were going to help a friend of ours move and then have dinner at Sweet Tomatos, got a buy one get one free coupon in my email! Yay! But in order to get there and to church on time we would need to be eating at 6pm. I just text him to see if he could please be home before 6... Lets see how that goes. I need more attention. He just doesn't get it.

He called me a control freak earlier. Because I don't want him going out to a party on Halloween night AND because I got upset that he lied about being at work today. I am the control freak.

Dylan is asleep thank the Lord.

My mom is awesome, she called and let me vent. Woohoo. Rafal just text me back finally, said he would try to get here in time, but the tire guy stood him up, so he is trying to find another tire somewhere else. I said come home, you have all weekend with your brother already planned out, and the tire isn't important. So he said ok. This makes me sick.

He skipped work today, to hang with his brother. Tomorrow morning I wanted to take Dylan to this fun Halloween thing, which I still will, I was just hoping if Rafal was going to skip a day of work maybe he would pick tomorrow instead of today.

I need to go take a shower while the monster is sleeping. He has kept me on my toes all day. Im stinky haha

Time with Your Family

I am having a really rough day. Hormones? Maybe, but I doubt it. Just life throwing me a curve ball.

I need to be the bigger person and apologize for something I didn't even do, just to make things right. If we keep this war up it could go on forever.

I got a cool email today though that made me happy.... This link was in it.

Time with Your Family

Check it out :)

Would you let your boyfriend go out on Halloween...

... with out you?

Seriously. With the trampy costumes. And the skanks out that night. Its like the worst temptation night in the world.

BD comes home from work and says like its no biggie
"Sunday we're gonna go paint balling ya know, so my brother said I could come over Saturday night and crash there. Probably go out or something too."

Saturday night is Halloween I say. And hes like I know, we'll go trick'r'treating and then I will just go over there.

Wtf.

Is my input not needed?

I'm infuriated.
I keep praying for strength.
& it keeps coming and going.

Guess Dyl & I will be on our Saturday night. Fml. I wish I got to go out on Halloween with MY friends. He doesn't think about what if I said to him Im doing this on this night, and I assume your staying home with Dylan. SO hah! He'd FLIP out!

Input ladies PLEASE...


How should I handle this? I hate that he KNOWS I am always going to stay home with Dylan. I am half tempted to hire a sitter out of my own pocket and go do my own thing. This is ridiculous that I am even having to write this blog. He should be staying at home on that night with me and Dylan. Then Sunday night (his brothers REAL bday) he can go out.

He isn't in college. He isn't single. AND I am his girlfriend. Yeah his brothers WIFE gets to go.... so heres my thought::

Rafal should find a babysitter and say baby, Saturday night I got us a sitter so we can go out with my brother and his wife for his birthday.



ugh. God help me not be so upset.

Eeek! October 28th! What?!

As I type Dylan is trying to put his shoes on his dolls feet and BoBo is making sure that won't happen by licking Dylans face non stop! These two are too much. They just took off running down the hall way.

I can't believe how busy I have been these past few days since I was last able to blog! Dylan is completely back to normal on the being sick scale. Hes acting like nothing was ever wrong! He has been pooping AND peeing on the potty like no bodies business! So proud of my little man growing up so fast. As for pooping and peeing, well BoBo is still having issues!

I just want to throw out there that I am by no means a spiritual person. I don't pray every day to God, or the Lord or any one for that matter. I am not even sure I am positive he exists BUT I do have a higher power, I mean every one should. Some one is up there watching out for us and keeping a close eye on our journeys, there is no doubt in my mind about that. So with that in mind. We went to church two weeks ago. By fate. God wanted us in church and he sent an Angel and she said "Go to church tomorrow!" and we did. And WOW! It has opened my eyes to a different life. We have gone two Sundays in a row now. Loved it more this second time around but either way its a blast. This last day was about giving ALL your worries to God. Well lets say I decided to practice that this week. Let me tell you about ALL of the amazing things that have happened this week since Sunday. I was offered a job opportunity, designing a web page for a local Montessori school. They are going to pay me with TWO FREE MONTHS OF CHILD CARE!!! Not only that, wait, it gets better. They need a tile guy to barter with as well. Owner says if you know any one with that skill that needs child care pass them my way. DO I KNOW ANY ONE?!?! That's only BD's actualy profession! YES I KNOW SOME ONE! So here's the best part. Rafal went in yesterday and took the measurements... got the job for sure. The owner just has to get the tile and grout which I am working on finding him a great deal.... For the tile work AND the web page.... ONE FREE YEAR OF DAY CARE AT A MONTESSORI SCHOOL!! Tell me God doesn't exist. My worries have been about school. I start in January. But we can't afford child care. $170 a week is more than we pay in rent! So I was going to have to get a night job to make some extra income to save up until then. Well NOW I won't even have to get that darn night job. I am so blessed. I will get to stay home with Dylan until January. Then get to go to school every day with no worries about who my son is with. He will be there from 7:30am until 6pm every day making friends and playing with his buddies! I will have time to get home work done and the house cleaning taken care of before every one gets home. I will graduate in MAY with a license in Massage Therapy, and still have 7 MONTHS of FREE child care left, to then MAKE MONEY to pay off my bad credit. Our lease at the dump is up in June and we will be able to get a decent place with two incomes.

God is blessing my family so much.

Rafal's work schedule is full right now, which means rent will be paid on time AGAIN. Bills are all about to get shut off, but thats ok, he gets paid again soon enough and we can get it all back on. Two incomes will be amazing. We won't know what to do with ourselves. Those people complaining about their $25K jobs can bite me! We live on $15K and MAKE it JUST FINE! When I alone am making the $25K from MT it will blow us away. When you learn to live on $150 a week..... then you move up to having $700 a week. Life is good.


Life is good.
God is good.
I am new to this whole God-ly thing but I am a believer.


I don't even want to complain about BD and his annoying behavior yesterday while he had his day off. Lets say I went crazy a few times, and yelled a little about how I needed his help on his days off. I didn't sit down from 8am when Dylan got me up until 9:30pm when he went to bed last night. Talk about a long day.

Well Dylan was just trying to pull me away from the computer, so thats my que, I need to get going. Hope every one had a safe weekend, and a great start to their week! Last week of October is already here. Clocks fall back this weekend AND a new month begins with next week! Happy Halloween!

Thank God for Publix!

Seriously. No joke. Thank GOD for Publix and their FREE antibiotics!

This whole situation began last week when Dylan was horribly sick and we went to the hospital. They prescribed him with amoxicillin. It was like 11:50pm when we were discharged and told to fill it asap.... We are poor, no I don't want a pity party, but its the truth. We had no gas, no money, and were afraid it was going to be expensive! So we take it to Walgreens, they wanted to charge us $38.50!!! AHHH!!! They said it was more expensive because it was a liquid for a child. I was so embarrassed that we couldn't get him his medicine. The next day I called his doctor to tell them about the ER visit, and they said "Call Publix. They have FREE antibiotics!" So I did. And sure enough they did! My mom had told me in the past but I assumed only for adult pills, but when I called Publix Pharmacy the woman said "Oh no honey! Its all free any form!"

Holy crap! Yay! So the very next day we ran to Publix and got it filled! The troublesome part is getting his to swallow it all. It smells like it must taste pretty good.... But he throws the biggest fit! Flailing his arms and kicking his legs for about 5 minutes. Then all of a sudden he will stop fighting and just drink it right out of the serenge! How can I cut the fighting out and just skip right to the happy baby taking his medicine like a good little boy?! Tricks any one? Doctor said to mix it is juice, we tried, he gagged and then wouldn't drink juice the rest of the day. It is stressful and difficult. He still has 6 more days of it too!

This morning was a GREAT morning at Church. We were about 15mins late, but it was no biggie! Got Dylan in to the day care center and sat down just in time to here Pastor Jim start talking. Don't worry about anything, he says. Give the Lord all of your worries and rejoice and be happy! Ok, well here goes nothing God.... :) This week I will try to live my life in that light. See if it goes any better.

Ugh annoying "hot" mom across the hallway is driving me bananas. From far away she looks gorgeous. But as soon as she opens her mouth you wana shoot yourself in the foot. She looks like and pretty.... but she whines SO much and sounds like a man with her raspy voice. Her voice wouldn't bother me if she spoke like an adult. She has a baby for crying out loud! Grow up! I just heard her say to her husband/boyfriend/whoever he is.... "Buuuuut I wana go to Bed Bath and Beyooooooond... Whyyyyy is that sooooo much to assssssk?! I waaaaant threeeeeee thinnnngs!!!" Ahhhh! Shut your pie hole! If this dog starts barking again because of you and wakes Dylan up we will have harsh words. I was here first. haha

Sorry. PMS'ing anyone??

Lasagna for dinner tonight. Favorite.
Made Shepards Pie last night. Thats BD's favvvvorite ever.

Took pictures with Aloha Photography today. Sean was his name. Did a great shoot! Can't wait to see the proofs maybe tonight?! Yay!

Period. Period.

When you have a child having a period is the worst experience in the world and the best all at the same time. Seeing as when I got pregnant with Dylan I had been on birth control since I was 15, and had been smoking so much marijuana that conceiving should've been near impossible... I don't hardly even trust BC at this point. So when I don't get my period for 2 months I get worried. I am sure you can understand that. So YAY period.

Talk about cramps, mood swings, bloating... WHILE chasing a 19 month old AND a puppy! Not happening. Holy crap. Its been two months, so I had kind of forgotten I guess, I just knew I wanted it to start, but with out the debilitating side effects. I can hardly sit up straight right now just to type this. Ugh.

Yay no babies in my belly.... Boo stupid cramps and bitchiness. (Sorry for the language, I plan to keep this pretty G rated, except for the dreaded period blog! haha)

***Update about last night***

BD & I got a few hours ALONE!!! My bestest best friend Breanne had Dylan watch TV at her place for a few hours while BD & I went to a model casting call. He got picked to be a runway model!! I got picked to be a "still" model! I will be body painted and be in the crowd posing all night! November 28th! For $25 you can come to the Celebrity Chairty Fashion Show &&&& The AFTER PARTY! I can't wait! This will be awesome, a whole 24 hours pretty much of me & BD having some "sexy" fun together out in the town.

Dylan did so good at Bres so yay!

Yesterday was a great day! :)

Today will be another great day too I hope... Minus the P. Ugh. Hanging out with my mom this afternoon. BD has a HUGE day today... 5 jobs. Ugh. I feel bad for him.

4 Followers & 230 Views!

can't believe you guy are following my blog! I feel special or something :]
Thank you Steffany for being the first to jump on board the mommy blog train (choo choo)
Then it was Cherryl! Yay! Then Breanne and now Jennifer! You gals rock :0) Not to mention I am so excited and happy to have 230 views! Say what?! People read my junk and that is insane to believe!

Today is going to be a hectic day... ugh. Borrowed my moms car in order to run an errand that is 23 miles away! AN HOUR DRIVE! and not even worth it.
The mall = Worth It
The Dentist = SOOO Not Worth It.
Dylan is running around with his pitch fork for his Devil halloween costume. It is a scary sight.

Rafal was about 20minutes late for work today. Ooops.
I need to come up with some code words for "stuff" so that my readers know whats up, but it can be a secret to the rest of the world. Give me any ideas?

I will write more and broadcast later <3

TMS - Typical Male Syndrome

So I just spent the last 45minutes reading a post and all its comments on a site I belong to called MomsLikeMe.com. It started with a Stay at Home Mom [SAHM] talking about how annoyed she was with her husband and how he DOES work but when he comes home he has a tendency to pass out RIGHT before doing his chores. I squealed in delight to know I wasn't alone in this, then decided I had to blog it! My BD [baby daddy] does have a very strenuous job, and will sometimes have 60-70 hour weeks working for a moving company. Right now is the "slow season" though so he is lucky to get a 20 hour week. I won't lie, I spoil my man. On a normal day that he has to work I get up with Dylan if he gets up before we do. I take Dyl in the other room so daddy can get as much sleep as possible. On those days I usually make him some breakfast and hot tea. Now on an off chance Dyl sleeps late I just let BD get up on his own, kiss him goodbye as he leaves and I will go back to sleep until Dylan gets me up. Days BD works I do it all. Clean the house, do dishes, put away laundry, scrub toilet, and EVEN have dinner ready when he gets home. The house gets the spotless treatment about twice a week, thats the whole shebang, vaccuming and dusting, you know the whole nine-yards. The house will be lookin great and smelling great until he gets home. First thing he always does is take his shirt and socks off in the bed room. Here is hamper [] here is where they end up >>> ___. Two feet away from the hamper. Ok, ok, ok.... I pick 'em up right away so I don't get upset. I put them in the hamper and kiss him. Then he sits down on the couch, OR at the computer. Thats where he will remain until food is served. We just recently got a dining room table so we eat there EVERY night. So he will come in the kitchen and get Dylan in his high chair, and help with feeding him. Fast forward to dinner being done. Dylan takes a bath RIGHT after dinner every night, its part of his routine. So this is when the tooth pulling begins. "Baby, will you give Dylan a bath while I clean up the kitchen?" Fair trade right? 10minute bath vs. 30minute kitchen mess. I think he gets the "fun" job, so I expect no complaints. 6 times out of 10 he will jump up and get to it no problem. But the other 4 times when he SIGHS and complains and says things like "Can you tonight baby? I am soooo tired".... I hate that response. I am tired too but SURE I will bathe him AND clean the kitchen why the heck not! Now I don't want this to turn in to a BASH on BD post but.... as one of the Stay at Home Dad's wrote on that page... theres a female comedy that says "Load the dishwasher, thats SUCH a turn on!". It is completely the truth. He will have four or five days off in a row sometimes and will just lay around. Like he is God of the house. I get that he deserves a day off when he works so hard... but when is MY day off? He has NEVER once on his own gotten up with Dylan one morning and played with him in the livingroom while cooking me breakfast like I do weekly for him. I don't get to "blow" money on pedicures or my hair, but he gets to go golfing and get a 12 pack of beer and ciggerettes whenever he wants. How does that work. I can't wait for the day he sets his alarm for a MOMMY day. I would love to see him do my job. Wake up with Dylan one day so I could sleep in and have a "day off". Then just chase him and the puppy around all day while I sat by the pool and painted my nails. Then he could cook dinner AND clean it all up WHILE bathing Dylan because I don't wana.

Granted he has amazing qualities.... He will go get me tampons, or a random pregnancy test when I get worried. He will even do the dishes on occasion after only asking him 3 times nicely. He takes out the trash all on his own, after it is overflowing BUT he gets it out. He can fix ANYTHING. He will go to church if I beg him. He DOES help with laundry on laundry day! He will do just about any chore if I ask a few times. (Would be nice if I didn't have to ask.. BUT you know how that goes) He will rock Dylan to sleep at least one night a week. Especially when he sees I am stressed out. There are more.. but I can't think of them right now haha

I love him. It is so tiring living with him, but I know I couldn't live with out him. I spoil him, so it is my fault. Maybe he will read this and one day give me a surprise of doing the dishes on his own, bathing Dylan without me asking, putting Dyl to bed without the nagging and complaining. Would be nice. Hint Hint! hehe

Blood Clot. Ugh.

Last Thursday I had a tooth pulled for the first time ever, & it was probably the worst of my dental experiences ever. EVER. I had to be sedated due to the fact the tooth would have to be drilled and cut out. The pain and swelling was ridiculous. Lasting 5 days, the swelling that is. The pain is still horrendous! My whole jaw is sore and throbbing. So today I had my follow up appointment, I guess I "lost" the blood clot? What ever that means. All I know is he shoved a huge brown wad of fabric down in my wound, talk about pain. Then he persrcibed me some Tylenol 3's. THANK THE LORD ABOVE! I had a *bad* reaction to the Vicodin on Thursday night and swore I was choaking to death. Turns out I kind of was, my throat closed up... I won't even get in to all of that. Lets just say, thankfully after about 5 hours of trouble breathing and non-stop barfing I could breathe again! Yay! It was also good that for the most part this all went on after Dyl was asleep and Rafal was already home from work taking care of me. So today was a huge debacle getting me to the doctor at 9:30am, and then Dylan to his [follow up after his ER visit] doctor appointment at 10:50am. We got there at 10:20am thinking we would get in earlier if we got there earlier. Except not. It was noon before they got us back. Dylan had had 7 fits by then, cried on the floor 3 times AND completely embarrassed us twice. Not to mention the work out we get chasing him up and down the hallways of the doctors office. Then when we finally were seen, it was for 3 minutes, and the doctor did was look in his ears.... She said "Looks like it is clearing up!" Duh. He is OBVIOUSLY feeling better. So I was completely stressed out and in insane pain for her to tell me he is getting better. Ugh.

Today was just a long day. AHHH! It's hardly half way through... only 2:45pm. Dylan took a long nap the whole way home from Tampa, then we treated him to some McDonalds. When we were in the Walgreens drive-thru getting my drugs he kept saying "meeel-k" which is his way of saying Happy Meal.. Then he was saying FRY! FRY! FRY! So we indulged for the first time in a long while. Mmmmm McChicken & Fries.... Now I feel fat. [lol]

Rafal went to play golf with some of the members from our new church, YAY! I am so ready to meet "good" people. I am tired of the people our age, they are still so immature and rude. Not all.... but pretty much every one we have met since Dylan got here, they were all deadbeats. They get drunk and do drugs with their babies on their hips. I don't care to drink or do drugs. I am by no means a prude, BUT I know that you *CANT* be a parent when you are under the influence of... anything. So when we get a sitter for a whole night I will go out and have one too many drinks, but NEVER when I know I have to be a mommy. Some people don't see it as a big deal... but I just don't want my son growing up thinking drinking is cool and fine. It isn't. It is a drug, it alters your mind and can make you some one your not. Alcoholism runs in the family on my side and his dads sooooo he is a huge risk. Gotta keep him on the right track starting early!

This is a long rant! I just took a T3 so hopefully I will start to feel better in my mouth region ASAP! What is every one doing for Halloween? No tricker treating... I wana do something else with Dylan. He is a little Devil. I will try to scan his pictures we had done last night. He looks like a little man in his costume. SCARY for sure.

What are you and your children going to be?

Poor sick DylBug...

I feel bad for Dylan.. He just isn't fully himself again yet. Started the antibiotics last night so I guess it does take some time for those to really start working. He usually jumps and dances and giggles all day... now he is just "chill". He lays around and is pretty calm for the most part. He even likes to snuggle which is WAY out of the ordinary. Its hard as his mommy to see him so blah feeling.

In other news, the cold front is gone. AGH! Its 89 degrees outside again. I want to keep the air off, but I don't know if we can take this for much longer. It is not hot if you don't move at all [lol] BUT I am not stop up and down all day, therefore it is hot.

Daddy got home early today so YAY! If you were watching live you got to see how excited Dylan gets when his daddy gets home! Today we are going to my Mom & Dad's for dinner and were going to go shopping for Dylans halloween costume. I am sure that will be fun and I will DEFF post up some cute pictures of that!

Mommy Cam & 100 Views!

Every 100 Views I will add something new and cool to the page... Well atleast until I have added everything cool I know about! So as of THIS 100 views now we have a mommy cam you guys can giggle at! You never know when we will be live, it ALL depends on Dylans mood, and of course MOMMYS mood :]

I can't write much now, since the monster is up and cranky BUT just wanted to say thanks to my 100 viewers!! Now I just need 100 Followers! :]

--Mommy

OMG! A shower? Really?!?

News flash.
When your 19 month old is sick, you don't have time to BATHE!

I know it has been a few days considering my legs are prickly. Ugh. I hate when this happens. Probably been 3 days, how disgusting! I feel icky!!! I am a very vain woman. Always wanting to look good for my baby daddy and for my self. But between a crying baby and a spastic puppy, I have hardly gotten an hour of sleep at once. His dads been working thank GOD, but that leaves little "ME" time. I am sure you understand.

Dylan is finally napping w00t! His dad will be off work early today, w00t! So why am I sitting here typing when I could be getting in a quick shower before Rafal gets home... I don't know! haha

Relaxing shower here I come!

Remember how laundry used to be?

I hate laundry as a family.
Worst part of having a family.
Well laundry & dishes are both up there!

Remember when you could do ONE teeny load of laundry a week or do like only have 2 or 3 dishes in the sink at a time? Yeah, when you were single... and living on your own. HAHA I just did laundry, and here it is again. With three of us and a poopie puppy, I have 4 baskets full. Never have time to drag laundry and my son to the laundromat so we have to wait for time when daddy is avilable to help too. Which isn't often. He works sometimes 70 hour weeks. Which IS a blessing, but I smell bad at this point. We are so poor that I had to just separate through the dirty laundry... Five different piles.
-Dylan clothes (all of his ALWAYS get washed)
-Rafal work clothes (they always get washed too obviously)
-Underware (duh!)
-My favs to wear (a few shirts and a pair or two of jeans)
-His favs to wear (a few shirts and shorts)
Now I am down to TWO baskets... still costing about $10 just to wash. Ugh. Laundry is such a biotch!

BUT dishes.... I HATE DOING DISHES. Always have always will. Can't wait to get a dishwasher. Rafal did the dishes last night for me, to help me out, thank God. LAST NIGHT. Already from soup for dinner, and snacks for Dylan, and breakfast as well as lunch today, both sides of my sink are FULL. SO here we go again.

I had a melt down this morning and cried on the kitchen floor. Dylan is my knight in shinning armour. He stood by me rubbing my arm saying "k?" over and over again. He was worried about me. But I just needed to cry. My house is a mess. The dog was pooping on the floor, Dylan spilled tea on the WHITE carpet.... all the while Daddy was still snuggled in bed. I just broke down. Then on the way to the doctor I started singing

"Kids screamin, phone ringin, dog barkin at the mail man bringin the stack of bills OVERDUE, good mornin baby how are you, got a half hour, a quick shower, take a drink of milk but the milks gone sour my funny face, makes her laugh, twist the cap on and I put it back. There goes the washin machine, baby don't kick it promise I'll fix it, long about a million other things... well its OK, its alright, just another day in paradise, well theres no place that I'd rather be, two hearts one dream, wouldn't trade it for anything, and i ask the lord every night ohhhhhh for just another day in paradise."

I love that song, its my life.
And I love it.
We are PERFECTLY imperfect.

The Search for a Seasonal Job::

I just have a small complaint.

I am looking for a SMALL part-time seasonal job, 10 hours a week would be FINE!

Why is it that a job that is ONLY paying $10/hr or even WORSE $6.50/hr asking for resumes?!

I will give you my resume if you are paying me $15/hr like a good job I once had. But to sell lotion at Bath & Body Works you have got to be kidding me. I will fill out an application like the rest of the world thank you very much.


In GOOD news. Daddy took Dylan with him and his brother to run errands for an hour or so. It is silent in my home. Amazing. & Lonely all at the same time. Weird right?

Church is GREAT!

I wana send a quick shout out to Granny Barb for the Email today. I am excited to see other people are reading and enjoying my rants and raves. And thank you to my first 17 viewers as well. Means a lot that you have taken time to click and read a random blog!

On with today. What a gorgeous day in Clearwater, FL. Woke up freezing in bed, I had turned off the A/C on Friday night and left the windows open all weekend. Brr! Dylan is STILL not feeling up to par. So, I really think we have to get to the doctor on Monday.

Last night Rafal and I got to have a DATE FOR ONCE! YAY!!! We went and saw Paranormal Activity while Nana & Papa stayed with Dylan. It was a crazy movie but the craziest part of all was when we were walking to the car. A random woman (Tamara) pulled us to the side and said "Wow, crazy huh? I am for sure going to church tomorrow! You should come too! It's on US19, called New Purpose! They have coffee and doughnuts and you can wear flip-flops! Its a blast! See you there!" I told Rafal if that wasn't a sign that we needed to get to church that I didn't know how much more obvious God would have to make it. SO we got up and went today. GREAT church, GREAT people, GREAT fun.

Dylan had a BLAST in the nursery. He ate cookies and played with a little toy kitchen and tool bench. He made friends. And that made my heart feel super happy :) [If you know what that line is from then your a REAL stay at home mom lol] As a stay at home mom Dylan doesn't get a lot of interaction with other children and it breaks my heart. He loves to play with other kids so one day we WILL have other children, just not today. Too much stress as it is.

We will be going to this church more often, if not for us, for Dylan's sake. He deserves friends and buddies and church cookies :)

How do you feel about church and children? My family never really went to church, but Dylan's dad was brought up strictly Catholic... it's odd how people come together.

Cold's and Babies. What a blasty blast!

Does it hurt any one elses heart when your child is sick? Mainly when they are so small they can't tell you what is really bothering them? I feel so awful for Dylan, he has had a low grade fever and runny nose since Wednesday night. Called the Doc and they always say the same thing... As long as it stays under 103degrees he is probably just teething or dealing with a small cold. So, that is what we do. He has been drinking Pedialyte and taking childrens Tylenol every 4-8 hours as needed since Wednesday. If he isn't better by Monday we ARE taking him to the doctor. I hate seeing him so less active than normal. He is such a spunky outgoing little boy. He loves running and dancing, and he has just been very laid back lately. Which, IS, kind of nice.

I had a tooth pulled on Thursday and ended up having an allergic reaction to the Vicodin they gave me. I was sick for what felt like for ever. Ugh. I am sure you know what it is like to be unGodly sick alone with a baby. Not a cake walk. Daddy had to be at work at 4:30am so yeah... AND Dylan woke up about 10minutes before Daddy had to leave, and I was sick as a dog. Not fun at all. Thank God I am better now. No more Vicodin for mommy. The Extra Strength Tylenol works JUST fine.

Todays weather was gorgeous eh? 65degrees here in Clearwater. We went for a 3 mile walk round trip to Barnes & Nobel. Talk about a built in babysitter. Grab a few books and go sit in the children's section by the train station table, your good to go for AT LEAST an hour!

Anyone want to meet up there sometime let me know! Barnes & Nobel on US 19 by Publix and Sports Authority. Would be a blast!

Hope everyone is having a great weekend so far. Church at 10:45am, and Dylan JUST fell asleep so gonna go have some alone time with baby daddy. Talk more soon!

Lets call this Lesson 1: Puppies poop... A lot.

If you are a new mom, don't be dumb like me and throw a 3 month old puppy in to the mix. They poop a lot more than I expected. They pee when they get excited. They whimper and whine and bark when they feel like it.

I have to say that doesn't sound much different than my son Dylan, which might be why they get along as good as they do. Dylan poops a lot... pee's when he is excited and whimpers and whines and "barks" whenever he feels like it. Which tend to be at the most inconvenient times. Like the grocery store. Ugh. The grocery store. What a debacle that can be.

Lets not change the subject though.

Dog IS a mans best friend, and I couldn't agree more. From the second Dylan and BoBo laid eyes on each other they were destined to be together until death do they part. NOW... if I had my choice, BoBo would've been gone by week 1... But I couldn't do that to Dylan. They are inseparable. Non-stop. When BoBo goes to get a drink Dylan sits on the couch and yells "BOBO!!" Until BoBo comes back, its ridiculous. In fact the other night Dylan woke up with a small fever so we gave him some tylenol. I rocked him while his daddy sat on the floor next to us talking to him. Dyl sat up and in his crying voice he whispered "BooooBooooo?". Talk about heart breaking. We let BoBo in the bedroom (he isn't allowed in Dyl's room at night for pooping reasons) & instantly Dylan was all smiles.


I remember when Dylan would wake up and say "MOMMY!!" or even "DADDY!" But now its just.... BoBo.

Every day. BoBo!
:)

If I had the chance I would go get BoBo again in a heart beat. I just wish they CAME housetrained and silent. Wouldn't that be nice? Just a thought.

Do any of the moms on here have pets AND babies??

A puppy AND a baby?!

Who ever said having a baby was easy as pie... was wrong! I am a young mom, 23 years young, with a year and a half old son named Dylan. He has a puppy named BoBo, that I take care of. He also has 5 fish, that I too, take care of. They truly need a manual for having a child as young as I am. I get that there are girls in their TEENS having children, which is... ok. But being in the middle of "finding yourself" and finding out your pregnant, it isn't exactly the best time it could happen. I want to blog about this. Blog about the good times and the bad. Blog about not being married, but still loving Dylan's dad. Blog about the puppy pooping on the floor every day. Blog about the "in-laws" and my parents. But more than that I want readers to blog with me. To comment. To tell me their having the same problems, or bigger, or lesser. Doesn't matter who you are, young or old, tall or short, mommy or not... Lets grow together through our own REAL experiences!


I am Sara Schumacher.
I am 23 years young.
I have blonde hair that changes color a few times a year.
I have blue eyes.
I have an amazing boyfriend who is the father of my son.
I have a baby boy Dylan.
He has red hair and blue eyes.
He loves his puppy BoBo.
I get depressed sometimes, I get giggly sometimes.
I am a mom.
I am a sister, a daughter, an aunt and a friend.
Who are you?